I just wanted to share my experience lately because I feel so filled up with the holy spirit, I do not want that to go away. Recently some events have hit me and it hurt quite a bit but instead of ranting to someone. Which I did anyways and it didn’t make me feel any better. I turned to God. I started bible plans, reading my bible and looking forward to it. This sounds insane but when I have problems now, I start an excessive amount of bible plans. I recently started making little sticky notes, index cards, and journal pages of just bible verses and encouraging things.
I feel that my eyes are completely focused on God. But I didn't feel like this instantly because my life has been extremely rough for the past year. 2015, I was in the chains of slavery. I felt enslaved in my own life. I felt attached to people, relying on people, seeing if others read my messages, if others liked me. But I would not accept the fact that I don’t need approval from anyone but God. I was not living the right life I was supposed to be living. Only to be enslaved in others approval. Until a couple of nights ago I was finally set free. I prefer not to go into detail but it happened. Now I was broken hearted, I was so upset. But it put clarity to my eyes for what I have been doing to myself all through 2015. The point I am telling you this is because I am starting 2016 feeling so free. Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy Psalm 126:5. I have cried many times this past year just wondering when my pain will end and feeling so much pain a couple nights ago. But the clouds have passed by and I can finally see the sun and feel freedom through Christ. I feel that my heart, mind, and soul is all focused on God. He is the center of my life. I was so consumed about me. Only me and nothing but me. But it’s all about Him and His glory. I cannot explain to you how amazing it has been for me. I used to be so Reliant on friends to be there for me. But I’m going to completely honest, I could care less anymore. I love the friends I have but they aren’t the center piece. But I’m not saying to get rid of all your friends because you always will when you need them. But I don’t want to rely anymore. I don’t want to be enslaved anymore. This year will be different. Less of me, More of Him.
I pray for you all to have a great 2016.
-Annie Hoang-Pham
